想念~
却只能怀念
真的在你心中
赢不到一丁点位置吗
或许吧
我输了

*今年圣诞，好难过...










还是宝贝吗？
是宝贝会偶尔想起我吗？

such a tiring , exhausting sickness and suffering days for me ~~
it's kinda happy can earn a lot of money within few days work ~
kinda excited too can earn by myself ~
but
this is damn tired !!
cant hit the target that teacher wish for ...
cant sing very well ...
cant sleep early at night ...
have to walk far far away form the LRT station to the hotel ...
have to rush like hell after school ...
get much pressure cause is my very first time for work ...
cant get to online whenever i want ...
but the good thing is ~
can get quite high payment after this ...
can have a very nice , expensive buffet meals for free every single day of work ...
can make my day more busy and meaningful ...
quite enjoy it and appreciate it but quite tired !
hahax !
( i dunno what am i talking about anyway ~~ )

p.s why am I making myself such a busy girl ??

终于太阳
还是升起
蒸发昨夜
为你落的泪滴
虽然心还疼痛地
回忆最初的场景
成全了你
再见面已经是朋友了
我们就这么单纯
瞎聊着彼此
一些不关紧要的问题
我们微笑了
也都不躲了
这单纯的坦诚
简单的回应着伤痛
你好吗
将会是我们往后最默契的开场白
不该继续叹息
深深呼吸

第一次
体会到心痛的感觉了
算...长大了吗
除了心痛
还是心痛
没其他感觉了
睡前或睡醒
就会明显感受到
会讨厌睡觉吗
不会吧


p.s 再也没有人保护，幼稚不了了

舒缓神经
放轻松
抬起胸口
黄凯琳
梦醒了
回来了
对着镜子里的自己
笑一笑
说：
坚强
勇敢
伤心难过
世界也还是继续旋转
时间也还在走
每件事物~人
都在运作...

p.s 我还是我~依然爱笑的我...

故事的最后
看开了
笑了
懂了
明了


p.s 我想家了...

终究如此
无动于衷
预料的
同样的心情
同样的语气
同样的眼神

结束了这一如往常的
同样的夜晚


p.s anyway , nice movie ^^
thx for the accompaniment ~

面对面坐着的是不是你
爱情还在不在进行
想问你是不是想要放弃
却害怕你也在问自己
如果一开口
变成了结局
你是否也有相同的难题
你的勇气里
有我的命运
我不知道你会怎样做决定


p.s 千言万语无从说起

你
累了吗
如果真的累了
请一定要跟我说一声
好吗
不要让我傻傻的一直等下去
以为你会回来
好不好
如果不是
那就请你不要
让我认为
你累了


p.s 或许不对你好是我一直以来都学不会的事情吧

何时能再一次听你
只为我
弹的琴...?
只有那时候
感觉你真真实实
是属于我的~~


p.s 我要相信你是爱我的

哈哈哈
笑笑没烦恼
小孩子天真可爱的笑
见了就什么烦恼都烟消云散


p.s 有时候也想可以像小孩子天真的一笑就凡事都雨过天晴了

梦破了
沉默别不敢哭
伤痛了
拥抱胜过安抚
错一次
就像看一本书
跑上了山坡尽头断了路
勇敢
就是我的许愿树


p.s 圣诞快乐 @.@

till the end
you are the one
whom with me
by my side
glad to have you
thx God
i appreciate you




p.s i bet you know i'm talking bout you

当一些事情发生了
或许
每个人都有自己的方法来释放情绪吧
试想想
若现在有个很漂亮的公园
可以荡秋千
会是怎样呢？

pity girl Angera Koh ...
have to escape from someone's sight ~
cant even go bac home before that someone sleep or go out !
haiz haiz ..
pity nihh >.<
but she's here accompany me few nights dy ^^
so fun spending the night with her at my room ..
we chit chat
do homework
online
go 7-11
make jokes
sing
sleep
etc.

although pity her ~
we really make fun on it anyway ~
hahax !
hope she'll enjoy the nights she spent here larh !
cum'on dear ~
i'm always with you no matter what ~!
chill ^^

jz finish skype with my daddy , mommy , grandpa , grandma , shop workers ...etc.

so fun ~!

talk non-stop !!

*you know larh my style ... talk jiu non stop ! wakaka ~!

but really fun ...

Angera even perfrom a song for my daddy through skype !

wow !!

enjoy ~~

my daddy sambil sambil urut kaki and enjoy the performance i think ~!

my grandpa cry non-stop ~~

hahax !

pity him neh T.T

most regret thing is ...

i cant chat with my brother `~>.<

he's working at behind the store !!

haiz ~~

btw ,

good news is ...

my daddy a cover of AMC's brand cost RM2400~

a vid. cam cost RM2000++

a phone for my bro ... X5 cost RM 600++ *i think ...

AND ~~

processing to buy a new house !!

hahax !!

most important good news i get is ~

he willing to buy me an IPhone4 without signing the package ~!!

Yuhooo ~~!!

also ,

my mommy let me buy new clothes by bank-in me money ~!

fun sei me ~~!

so so so so so happy ~!!!!!!

I Love you Daddy ~~

I Love you mommy ~~

mwakkkkssss ^^

what to do ??

cant even figure out any good way to solve this kinda prob~

you are still in ur own way ... without caring any of my feelings ( sometimes )

well ,

learnt to be more independence dy ~!

thx for ur great guide anyway !

seems like i totally wont have any idea on when ur mood is good and when ur mood bad like hell !

i'll jz be like a fool there beside or behind you jz to make sure that this is not my fault but you jz ignored me ~!

what the ... !!

today was totally a bad bad day for me dude !!

AND

this is what called a good relationship of friend huh ??!

anything jz hide from me ~!

treat you like real true friend but what you thought of me is jz duhhhh ~~~

ok fine ..!

maybe this is jz my 想太多 ！

whatever then ...~~

used to it with this fav word of you all ...

cum'on ~!

NG CARYN is STUPID !!!!!

as a paid worker ^^

wawawiwa ~~~ 1st time i work at school ...!!

you know what ? is kinda boring and tiring job act.

tiring is caused by the bored not because of the load of the job ...

hahax !

thinking of what to do there is the most tired thing at there since the 1st thing in the morning .

anyway ,

get to know few of the examiners and a super nice and friendly kak Laila such a glad thing for me ^^

btw , sure i'll get paid for the work larh of course ! RM8 per hour ~~

this counted as cheap or not bad ? hahax !

for me , i think is better than nothing lorh ~

early in the morning gotta go school dy ...till 6 something nihh can come bac ~

aiyoyo ~!!!

study also not that hardworking larh ... hahax !

4 days of working days ...

no comment bout this larh ~

most susah is the lunch break dy larh ~

hungry till sei still need to wait for those late candidates ...

some more dunno where to eat ...

some more sun so big and hot !

think bout this straight away faint **~~'''

finally step into the 8th week of school week ...

which means it jz left 4 weeks to go and will end the 1st sem of my school life ~

and ,

this question has been rotated in my mind since the day you told me that this thinking came in to ur mind before ...

since the day is getting nearer and nearer ,

it makes me more to think bout it .

do you really mean it to end up giving up studying here ?

izzit this really will be your last decision when it comes towards the end of sem ?

no other choices that you can make ?

sometimes , i really do try my best not to think bout it but this thinking really comes into my mind whenever i thought of the end of sem is jz around the corner ...

cause of lacking of braveness in me makes me not dare to ask whether this still comes into ur mind ?

i even not dare to mention any words that will make you think of withdraw your study here in front of you ...

how stupid i am huh ?

hahax ! silly !!

i jz making myself a fool and not to face the truth !

cum'on Caryn ....! don't be such a fool ~!!

随着时间一分一秒的过，距离考试的时间也越来越近了~

剩下不到一个月的时间我就要考trinity的。

再过一个月就是学校的考试...

完全没有信心的我到底要怎样面对即将来临的考试呢？

心情一天比一天糟...

真想可以不顾一切的就完完全全发泄出来！

想喊就喊，想哭就哭，想疯就疯！

可是这当然是行不通的...

身边围绕着很多关心我的朋友们...

对他们诉苦是其中之一的方法,可是也当然不能老是麻烦人家啊~~

整天在他们耳边唠叨...

念东念西的 ，在有耐性的人都会觉得烦啦！

最近简直是想太多东西了

应该是这样的关系导致最近失眠吧~

最好的方法应该就是对着电脑不断地敲打键盘

跟部落格诉苦咯~~

很好的解决方案...

既不必开口说话也不必费神跟人家解释...

但愿这样真的能是我自己好过一点~

神啊！救救我吧~~！

So is this counted as resolved alr ??
izzit possible to be like the past ??
izzit we are still the same like past few weeks ??
izzit no matter what made you think the negative way you will also say it out to me ??

well ... for the ans you gave me when i asked out the question ... it really comfort me a lot since the day it hurts ~
* try not to think any negative prob alr since you're not sure what's going to happen in future
* or else this really make yourselves suffer and so ppl around you
* try to share out your probs since you cant really find a conclusion
* sincerely , except reach the day that you going to tell me that you alr found out a conclusion , i think this gonna drive me crazy a lil bit more for now ...

anyway ... it's a good start that you willing to share with me your probs !
although i'm not sure whether you say them out all alr or jz part of your thinking , i think it's enough cause at least you started to share your think with me . really , thanks a lot !

OK ~ last question ... can i ask ?





Can you get me the 公仔饼 with peanut butter from hometown if you get to order it ?? hahax !


p.s. you are the one who made me addicted to it lorh ~~!

get to know new friends here ~~~
Angera n Celin !
good and nice enough to help me a lot at here no matter what !
really appreciate it pal ~~!
so so love you guys here ^^

wake up in the morning with not enough sleep ~~
yesterday was to over spent my energy hanging out with frens to sunway and SS2 ... laughing , scolding , make jokes , gossip-ing and etc. hahax !
i even slept in the car ... paiseh psieh ~!
then when reach home .. sure is online larh ~ saw laptop jiu straight away cant sleep !
then for sure ' faint ' at late night at about 1 i think ...
that's why today still tired !
can wake up even more late today but suddenly suffer from gastric pain make me have to wake up
arggghhhh !!!
what happen to my stomach ?
izzit i treat them not good enought make them torture me ? haiz ~~!
anyway .... going to school dy right now ~ hahax !
tatax !

1st day of skul ~~

tired ... nervous ... excited day for me ~
1st day of my skul here at YAAM !
all of the seniors and classmates there ~
super WOW !! geng ! like aliens !!
hahax !
( my roomate will scold me again for saying this )
*************************************************
anyway ...
i more nervous for the orientation next Wed ...
OMG !
suddenly informed by them next wed all of the D1's gonna perform a song each !!!
what the ==
haven't prepare anything for that lea ~~!!!
SWT SWT ==''
God ! help me !!

1st day at here ~

totally different life here ~
my lovely parents help my room mate and me with our room make over !
hahax !
they bought me a new bedframe ... bed .... bed sheet too ~
i'm goin to stay here for the 1st night ...
they will be staying my aunt's house at Subang there ..
monday will be my 1st day to skul too ~
excited and for sure will be nervous !
everything here's new for me ~!
try my best to cope with them ...
my room mate is a good senior ...
given me a lot news bout the skul ~
hope i'll make myself happy here !

hmmm ~~ gonna leave place i stayed for almost 18 years ~~!
for you , what will be the feeling ?
for me , it's really a new life for me ...
but for sure --it will be a tough life for me !
i had my sweet memories and bitter memories here in AS ...
really left many sweet things here such as my sweet frens ~ family ~
and so so much more to say !
i thought i will be so tough to leave here without any other feeling except EXCITED ~
but after the farewell dinner with all my most close ppl here ...
this feeling comes out straightly from bottom of my heart -- can anot if dont wanna leave here ?
i do really miss everything in AS... really did !
before that when i saw my fren's status in FB ,
she cries everyday after leaving her home sweet home cause missing her family ...
that time i think ~ i wont be like that for sure !
i'm strong and tough !
but now .... i think it's hard for me ~
maybe i'm still new to this environment ?
maybe cause i to lean to my parents ?
maybe i'm been protected by my family since baby ?
maybe maybe maybe ....????
well , i hope i can cope with my life here at KL as soon ~
Ng Caryn ~!
cum'on !!!
smile always ~^^

I Believe ...

I believe ..
that just because two people argue ,
it doesn't mean they don't love each other .
And just because they don't argue ,
it doesn't mean they do love each other .

I believe ..
that we don't have to change friends ,
if we understand that friends change .

I believe ..
that no matter how good a friend is ,
they're going to hurt you every once in a while
and you must forgive them for that .

I believe ..
that true friendship continues to grow ,
even over the longest distances .

I believe ..
that you can do something in an instant
that will give you heartache for life .

I believe ..
that you should always leave loved ones with loving words .
It may be the last time for life .

I believe ..
that you can keep going long after you think you can .

I believe ..
that we are responsible for what we do ,
no matter how we feel .

I believe ..
that either you control your attitude or it controls you .

I believe ..
that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done ,
regardless of the consequences .

I believe ..
that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time .

I believe ..
that sometimes when I'm agry ,
I have the right to be angry ,
but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel .

I believe ..
that maturity has more to do with what types of experience you've had
and what you've learned from them
and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated .

I believe ..
that it isn't always enough ,
to be forgivenby others.
sometimes , you have to learn to forgive yourself .

I believe ..
that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are ,
but , we are responsible for who we become.

I believe ..
that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secret ,
it could change your life forever .

I believe ..
two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different .

I believe ..
that even you think you have no more to give ,
when a friend cries out to you ,
you will find the strength to help .

I believe ..
that credentials on the wall do not make you decent human being .

I believe ..
that the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon .

I believe ..
the happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything ;
they just make the most of everything they have .

imma missing u ~

i miss my ( wifey )- Amanda and my ( silaiii )- Grace Lai and my ( awek )- Yen and so my ( orangey )- Fyna !

miss them badly lea ~ so so long time didn't meet them ,

didn't chit chat with them ,

didn't bath together ,

didn't sleep together ,

didn't eat together ,

didn't chat everything together before our slip....etc.

too much thing we had done together ....

miss the moment so much !! @@

TOO ! miss my buddy here ... miss my ( ah bi )- Yen Fern , (bro )- Ah Tatt , ( mama )- Ellyn Qi Yan
although we still at AS but less meet .
really less seem they buzy with her study n tuition for their form 6 life ...
think i not willing to bother them lar ~
jia you and good luck to you my dear fren ^^ ( 12 years fren lea since primary ) and so my bro and mama .. hahax !

*paiseh i just mention Mok family here ... for the other family ( H i think ) .. u all too i miss lar ~! hahax !

OSO FOR SURE i miss my gang who ady spread to other places for their coll and U life ~!
miss my ( dear hubby )- Ah Feng at KAmpar now !

miss my ( mom , son , sis and bro ... ) Min Hui , Zhi HAo , Ah Pheng , Kelvin , Xin Wei .. etc ( sorry for some who i didn't mention ur name ... )

hubby .. don't give urself do much pressure ya at there ~ must take good care nei !

don't go bac home along in the middle of night ...

don't do ur group discussion till late in night ...

as I said .. don't walk alone is the most important thing ya cz there got many colour wolf escape from the jail !!

Lastly ... is for a very caring fren for me since she's the one that very special i think ~

she will be the 1st to read my blog everytime i updated it .

will be the one who give me advice at suitable time.

will be the one who call me to cry of joy when her ex-school won in an competition.

will be the one know me when i'm sad , sorrow , helpless....

will be th one to stand by me whenever i need her .

i BET she probably won't let me mention out her name at here ~

well ~ no matter how ... really thanks a lot to have a fren like you ^^

( i think u'll know I'm talking bout u )

Do take care all my dearest frens here and ther and everwhere ~!

really thanks God to let me own such a good day and moment with all of u !

LUV ya' .... muacksss ^^

am i right or wrong ?

well... act today i got 2 appoinments de ~~
1 side is my fren's birthday party
the other side is to follow my aunt to penang for the last practice for my show at KL on 14th Aug de~
few time argue within my mind at last i decide to go my fren's party ...
i ignore the practice there and oso the clothes choosing session !
i feel guilty to all the dancers there too ~~
everything comes to sudden ..
i promised my fren 1st thn only i get to knw i gotta go penang .
how to reject my poor fren ar ??
although i ady made my decision and oso attended her party ~
but i oso still feel guilty !
GOD !!
help me ....

wee ~~~
gonna go to penang ltr again ^^
i passed the interview for modeling at thr ~~^^
my 1st experience neh ....
i have to slim down to make myself look slim on stage ltr ..
hahax !!
wish me luck ~^^

everything seem not under control for this month ~
at first the plan is to go for a singing comp. at Bukit Mertajam de....
but few weeks ago ... we a get a really shock news from my relatives there ~
!!! both my cousin bro n cousin sis died in an accident at highway near perak thr !!!!
izzit this too suddent ??!! OMG ! last time i meet them is just a month before the car accident !
TOO UNBELIEVABLE !

few days after the funeral ... my grandma sicked ...

and so after that my mom sick again ....

well ~ compare to that .. this sickening news is nothing ~

later on ... another news said that my previous neighbour's grandma passed away cause she fall down ~

after these few accidents ... i realise that human's life really very weak !
with this ... i think the hope to go for the singing comp. bcm low ~~!!!!

haiz.... God ! pray to wish that i can go for that ~* amitofo *

miss y'all ....
had a nice memory thr ~~

thanks God !

fell consoled when i knw there's still somebody who care my feelings and thinking ...
everytime i feel sad , moody , helpless ...
she'll be thr to share with me ~
whenever i update my blog ~ she'll be the 1st to read it and so to give me suitable motivation !
I really appreciate it a lot my fren ...
thx 4 everything n hope to be with u 4ever ..

Frens 4ever dear ^^

我彻底的输了！

我输 。。。
不是因为我败给了别人 ~
而是输给我自己！
我逃不过的。。终究是输不起！
我十八年来犯的最大错误就是--太高估我自己了！
我以为我可以很辉煌。。。很骄傲。。。很成功的过我的一生~
我没想过~真正的世界是如此的。。。
被家属的爱呵护着的我~到如今真正的看清这个世界~！
本以为一切都在我掌控中的生活~原来都还不过如此~~~
我错了！
黄凯琳！！！你不是全世界都得看你脸色过活的人。。。
在家你好吃好住~家里店里上上下下都敬你三分~
所以因为你有老爸老妈给你撑腰。。
在外面的世界。。你也只不过是个再普通不过的人！
输不起~只会给你带来更大更多的伤害 ~
从今以后~要积极的过生活！！
相信未来、相信自己、相信家人！！

more com to gain my experience ..

this coming July gt 2 more singing com ...
hehe !
most contestants come from KL ... penang .. ipoh ... etc .
very hope to gain my experience frm thr lor ~~!
no matter wat result ... i will try my best ! hahax ! ^^

Yummy ~~
wat a nice experience at penang's Daorae !!!
such a memorable ... over full ... and funny dinner 4 my bro , a fren and me ~
hahax !
enter tat shop without knowing anything bout tat meal ...
simply order few kand of food ...
eat wit a mouth full of food with funny style ...
i think the shopkeeper sure laugh till faint !
anyway ... it's a nice experience 4 three of us ~
such a waste dinner for us cause we ordered too many food till we cant finish it all ~
pity ...
of course ~ it did cost us a lot lar !
but , worth !

wawawiwa ~~!!!
so fast nia the comp date's near ... hmmppp~~
goin kl soon lea ...
wanna go 4 audition
wanna go 4 singing comp
wanna go 4 shopping ^^
hehe !!
wanna go Kim Gary
wanna go eat cup cakes ( so cute xsampai hati wanna eat )
audition is the most important things to do at thr ...!
i MUST PASS the audition !!!
i wanna study at thr lar @@
hahahax !!! * relax lar *
G00D LuCK ^^ Ng Caryn ... muackssss ^^
wakaka !!!

good luck ~

Feng , went to kampar dy lea ... mz take good care of urself thr o ~~ dn kena tipu by the ' colour wolf' thr ya ?? miss u so much here !

To all my frens hu r goin to matrix :
congrats n all th best to u all neh ~~! keep in touch n dn 4gt me ya ^^

All form 6 members :
jia you !!! ah bi ( yen fern ) ... i knw u sure tension tis tension tat de ~ dn gv urself so much pressure neh ~ change jor skul n environment oso nt same tcher dn scold tis scold tat nah !! hahax ! support u always geh .. * sobbing * hahx ! most close eh 12 years' fren ... dn 4gt me ya ... muacksss ^^

Ady went jor study at college eh frens ...
best of luck to u all n enjoy the different life thr lar ~ hahax !

dn wanna continue study eh frens > jia you in work too o ~~!!!

haiz ... at last still left me at here nia ... skul nt yet start n so jz helping parents wit thier job ! so boring ... btw ... will start my skul life soon too ! may god bless me to pass my audition ! amitofo ... KL ~ i'm coming soon ! ( someone hu still hutang me a meal at Kim Gary de dn 4gt nah !) hahax ! *jkjk*

emm..... so long tm dnt updated my blog lea ~~~
really quite bz nowadays .
goin kl soon btw ... hahax ! 4 audition n sing comp .
wan to enter tat college so much till i cn jz sit thr n think whole day bout tat skul ~
wakaka !! i thnk i getting crazy ....
frens r goin to start their skul's life again ~
1 by 1 goin here n thr ....
i m d 1 hu r the slowest among thm ... haiz !
nvm , goin to gt car license soon n so hope i cn pass the audition n gt gud result 4 the comp.
try my best nt to make my parents n myself disappointed ~
ya rite !! good luck to me ^^

day by day ~ feeling my life getting bored n bored !

nt nth to do , nt no frens accompany , nt no movie watch , nt no songs to listen .....etc

it's jz a feeling tat make me feel that .

everytime feel tis , i surely thnk to share with my frens ...

bt jz scare to disturb thm ~

although i nw thy will spend thier time jz 4 me ..

btw , i still feel happy n touched cz whnever i need thm , thy'll b thr 4 me ~

thx o ^^

for dn left me bhind since the day v met !

make up ~~ yerksss !!

i won jor a singing comp for Kedah's state ...
thn goin to KL for final ~
bt thn the organiser wan to make us poster tat's y they ask winner to go take focus pic !
no choice ... gotta korbankan my face to MAKE UP !
even comp i oso dn make up bt nw jz to take a pic i gotta make up !
ish !!!!!!!!!

gathering ~

had a gathering wit my primary's frens at restauran days ago ~
although jz short time , quite happy n hv fun !
no long tm aft tis i thnk we'll nt gt to c each other tat often le lor ...
will miss all of u de o ^^
muacksssssss !!!!!

so sudden , feel like very very miss all KLSN's frenssss ~
fell like goin bac thr with thm again ...
it's jz a feeling n it comes to me so sudden !
wake up early in the morning nia hv tat feeling ....
dn knw whn all of us gt 2 meet again ?
or dn even knw whether v have tat chance to meet each other again ?
hope we'll gt god's bless n hv chance to meet each other lar ....
too many memorable things tat v did together ~
slip , bath , eat , talk , walk , gosip , perform , sing , laugh , cry ..... etc .
3 months time past jor jz like a 3 days ...
really miss u guys !!!

vacation ..^^

went to thailand wit my family ....
kinda fun bt the weather thr really vy vy hot !!
eat eat n eat whole journey
tis tm reali fat sei lor ~
bo lang ai dy lar ...
wuwu T.T
hahax !
dn chap lar ...
enjoy myself is the moz important thng ..
huhu ^^

collected 1 pair of chip n dale lea ..~~ ^^
hahax !
thx o tatt ...
cute little pair ..
n oso feng's turtle ~ chubby nia !
beh tong ..
heh , jz to show show pic only ...
kinda childish huh ?!

working day ~!

ahem ahem ... hehe !
well , hard to believe bt it ady bcm the truth ...
Ng Caryn work as a clerk in her daddy's shop !
WOW !
hahax !
however , 1st day of the job was damn boring , meaningless ... argghhhh !!! ><''
keep eating eating n eating to make the time pass ~~~
documents full on the table and so cakes n sweets ^^
hahax !

OMG ! 1st tm in my life ...

my house flood !! COOL ~

ppl's house flood frm outside bt my house flood frm inside ~

hahax !

dn knw why suddenly my house's roof break ...

that's y flood frm inside ..

aiyoyo ~ no house n room 4 me to stay...

complicated thinking - cool , sad , impossible ~~

hahax !

btw , my bro still eating mee cup thr watching ppl cleaning the house ~

hang out wit frens whole day ...
shud b a quite bz n happy day ~
bt feel like nt yet totally bk here n still in da memory wit those frens thr !
although it's a quite boring life thr .
whatever ...
jz gimme sm tm to b bak here ..
and still da same , frens - i wn't 4gt u all !

SAD ~~

well , jz cm bk frm NS ... entered that kem since 4th of Jan ~Kem Lagenda Seri Negeri , Langkawi was my kem bt nw it ady bcm a past ! every single thing that happened thr ady bcm part of my life . Frens , trainers , activities , classes , songs and many more ... umm ~ still in NS mood n nt feel like bk to here actually ..
kinda stupid thinking i knw !
hehe
learn many things thr and gained many experiences too !
Frens ... I'll miss u guys thr !