am i right or wrong ?

well... act today i got 2 appoinments de ~~
1 side is my fren's birthday party
the other side is to follow my aunt to penang for the last practice for my show at KL on 14th Aug de~
few time argue within my mind at last i decide to go my fren's party ...
i ignore the practice there and oso the clothes choosing session !
i feel guilty to all the dancers there too ~~
everything comes to sudden ..
i promised my fren 1st thn only i get to knw i gotta go penang .
how to reject my poor fren ar ??
although i ady made my decision and oso attended her party ~
but i oso still feel guilty !
GOD !!
help me ....

wee ~~~
gonna go to penang ltr again ^^
i passed the interview for modeling at thr ~~^^
my 1st experience neh ....
i have to slim down to make myself look slim on stage ltr ..
hahax !!
wish me luck ~^^

everything seem not under control for this month ~
at first the plan is to go for a singing comp. at Bukit Mertajam de....
but few weeks ago ... we a get a really shock news from my relatives there ~
!!! both my cousin bro n cousin sis died in an accident at highway near perak thr !!!!
izzit this too suddent ??!! OMG ! last time i meet them is just a month before the car accident !
TOO UNBELIEVABLE !

few days after the funeral ... my grandma sicked ...

and so after that my mom sick again ....

well ~ compare to that .. this sickening news is nothing ~

later on ... another news said that my previous neighbour's grandma passed away cause she fall down ~

after these few accidents ... i realise that human's life really very weak !
with this ... i think the hope to go for the singing comp. bcm low ~~!!!!

haiz.... God ! pray to wish that i can go for that ~* amitofo *

miss y'all ....
had a nice memory thr ~~

thanks God !

fell consoled when i knw there's still somebody who care my feelings and thinking ...
everytime i feel sad , moody , helpless ...
she'll be thr to share with me ~
whenever i update my blog ~ she'll be the 1st to read it and so to give me suitable motivation !
I really appreciate it a lot my fren ...
thx 4 everything n hope to be with u 4ever ..

Frens 4ever dear ^^

我彻底的输了！

我输 。。。
不是因为我败给了别人 ~
而是输给我自己！
我逃不过的。。终究是输不起！
我十八年来犯的最大错误就是--太高估我自己了！
我以为我可以很辉煌。。。很骄傲。。。很成功的过我的一生~
我没想过~真正的世界是如此的。。。
被家属的爱呵护着的我~到如今真正的看清这个世界~！
本以为一切都在我掌控中的生活~原来都还不过如此~~~
我错了！
黄凯琳！！！你不是全世界都得看你脸色过活的人。。。
在家你好吃好住~家里店里上上下下都敬你三分~
所以因为你有老爸老妈给你撑腰。。
在外面的世界。。你也只不过是个再普通不过的人！
输不起~只会给你带来更大更多的伤害 ~
从今以后~要积极的过生活！！
相信未来、相信自己、相信家人！！