pity girl Angera Koh ...
have to escape from someone's sight ~
cant even go bac home before that someone sleep or go out !
haiz haiz ..
pity nihh >.<
but she's here accompany me few nights dy ^^
so fun spending the night with her at my room ..
we chit chat
do homework
online
go 7-11
make jokes
sing
sleep
etc.

although pity her ~
we really make fun on it anyway ~
hahax !
hope she'll enjoy the nights she spent here larh !
cum'on dear ~
i'm always with you no matter what ~!
chill ^^

jz finish skype with my daddy , mommy , grandpa , grandma , shop workers ...etc.

so fun ~!

talk non-stop !!

*you know larh my style ... talk jiu non stop ! wakaka ~!

but really fun ...

Angera even perfrom a song for my daddy through skype !

wow !!

enjoy ~~

my daddy sambil sambil urut kaki and enjoy the performance i think ~!

my grandpa cry non-stop ~~

hahax !

pity him neh T.T

most regret thing is ...

i cant chat with my brother `~>.<

he's working at behind the store !!

haiz ~~

btw ,

good news is ...

my daddy a cover of AMC's brand cost RM2400~

a vid. cam cost RM2000++

a phone for my bro ... X5 cost RM 600++ *i think ...

AND ~~

processing to buy a new house !!

hahax !!

most important good news i get is ~

he willing to buy me an IPhone4 without signing the package ~!!

Yuhooo ~~!!

also ,

my mommy let me buy new clothes by bank-in me money ~!

fun sei me ~~!

so so so so so happy ~!!!!!!

I Love you Daddy ~~

I Love you mommy ~~

mwakkkkssss ^^

what to do ??

cant even figure out any good way to solve this kinda prob~

you are still in ur own way ... without caring any of my feelings ( sometimes )

well ,

learnt to be more independence dy ~!

thx for ur great guide anyway !

seems like i totally wont have any idea on when ur mood is good and when ur mood bad like hell !

i'll jz be like a fool there beside or behind you jz to make sure that this is not my fault but you jz ignored me ~!

what the ... !!

today was totally a bad bad day for me dude !!

AND

this is what called a good relationship of friend huh ??!

anything jz hide from me ~!

treat you like real true friend but what you thought of me is jz duhhhh ~~~

ok fine ..!

maybe this is jz my 想太多 ！

whatever then ...~~

used to it with this fav word of you all ...

cum'on ~!

NG CARYN is STUPID !!!!!

as a paid worker ^^

wawawiwa ~~~ 1st time i work at school ...!!

you know what ? is kinda boring and tiring job act.

tiring is caused by the bored not because of the load of the job ...

hahax !

thinking of what to do there is the most tired thing at there since the 1st thing in the morning .

anyway ,

get to know few of the examiners and a super nice and friendly kak Laila such a glad thing for me ^^

btw , sure i'll get paid for the work larh of course ! RM8 per hour ~~

this counted as cheap or not bad ? hahax !

for me , i think is better than nothing lorh ~

early in the morning gotta go school dy ...till 6 something nihh can come bac ~

aiyoyo ~!!!

study also not that hardworking larh ... hahax !

4 days of working days ...

no comment bout this larh ~

most susah is the lunch break dy larh ~

hungry till sei still need to wait for those late candidates ...

some more dunno where to eat ...

some more sun so big and hot !

think bout this straight away faint **~~'''

finally step into the 8th week of school week ...

which means it jz left 4 weeks to go and will end the 1st sem of my school life ~

and ,

this question has been rotated in my mind since the day you told me that this thinking came in to ur mind before ...

since the day is getting nearer and nearer ,

it makes me more to think bout it .

do you really mean it to end up giving up studying here ?

izzit this really will be your last decision when it comes towards the end of sem ?

no other choices that you can make ?

sometimes , i really do try my best not to think bout it but this thinking really comes into my mind whenever i thought of the end of sem is jz around the corner ...

cause of lacking of braveness in me makes me not dare to ask whether this still comes into ur mind ?

i even not dare to mention any words that will make you think of withdraw your study here in front of you ...

how stupid i am huh ?

hahax ! silly !!

i jz making myself a fool and not to face the truth !

cum'on Caryn ....! don't be such a fool ~!!

随着时间一分一秒的过，距离考试的时间也越来越近了~

剩下不到一个月的时间我就要考trinity的。

再过一个月就是学校的考试...

完全没有信心的我到底要怎样面对即将来临的考试呢？

心情一天比一天糟...

真想可以不顾一切的就完完全全发泄出来！

想喊就喊，想哭就哭，想疯就疯！

可是这当然是行不通的...

身边围绕着很多关心我的朋友们...

对他们诉苦是其中之一的方法,可是也当然不能老是麻烦人家啊~~

整天在他们耳边唠叨...

念东念西的 ，在有耐性的人都会觉得烦啦！

最近简直是想太多东西了

应该是这样的关系导致最近失眠吧~

最好的方法应该就是对着电脑不断地敲打键盘

跟部落格诉苦咯~~

很好的解决方案...

既不必开口说话也不必费神跟人家解释...

但愿这样真的能是我自己好过一点~

神啊！救救我吧~~！

So is this counted as resolved alr ??
izzit possible to be like the past ??
izzit we are still the same like past few weeks ??
izzit no matter what made you think the negative way you will also say it out to me ??

well ... for the ans you gave me when i asked out the question ... it really comfort me a lot since the day it hurts ~
* try not to think any negative prob alr since you're not sure what's going to happen in future
* or else this really make yourselves suffer and so ppl around you
* try to share out your probs since you cant really find a conclusion
* sincerely , except reach the day that you going to tell me that you alr found out a conclusion , i think this gonna drive me crazy a lil bit more for now ...

anyway ... it's a good start that you willing to share with me your probs !
although i'm not sure whether you say them out all alr or jz part of your thinking , i think it's enough cause at least you started to share your think with me . really , thanks a lot !

OK ~ last question ... can i ask ?





Can you get me the 公仔饼 with peanut butter from hometown if you get to order it ?? hahax !


p.s. you are the one who made me addicted to it lorh ~~!