imma missing u ~

i miss my ( wifey )- Amanda and my ( silaiii )- Grace Lai and my ( awek )- Yen and so my ( orangey )- Fyna !

miss them badly lea ~ so so long time didn't meet them ,

didn't chit chat with them ,

didn't bath together ,

didn't sleep together ,

didn't eat together ,

didn't chat everything together before our slip....etc.

too much thing we had done together ....

miss the moment so much !! @@

TOO ! miss my buddy here ... miss my ( ah bi )- Yen Fern , (bro )- Ah Tatt , ( mama )- Ellyn Qi Yan
although we still at AS but less meet .
really less seem they buzy with her study n tuition for their form 6 life ...
think i not willing to bother them lar ~
jia you and good luck to you my dear fren ^^ ( 12 years fren lea since primary ) and so my bro and mama .. hahax !

*paiseh i just mention Mok family here ... for the other family ( H i think ) .. u all too i miss lar ~! hahax !

OSO FOR SURE i miss my gang who ady spread to other places for their coll and U life ~!
miss my ( dear hubby )- Ah Feng at KAmpar now !

miss my ( mom , son , sis and bro ... ) Min Hui , Zhi HAo , Ah Pheng , Kelvin , Xin Wei .. etc ( sorry for some who i didn't mention ur name ... )

hubby .. don't give urself do much pressure ya at there ~ must take good care nei !

don't go bac home along in the middle of night ...

don't do ur group discussion till late in night ...

as I said .. don't walk alone is the most important thing ya cz there got many colour wolf escape from the jail !!

Lastly ... is for a very caring fren for me since she's the one that very special i think ~

she will be the 1st to read my blog everytime i updated it .

will be the one who give me advice at suitable time.

will be the one who call me to cry of joy when her ex-school won in an competition.

will be the one know me when i'm sad , sorrow , helpless....

will be th one to stand by me whenever i need her .

i BET she probably won't let me mention out her name at here ~

well ~ no matter how ... really thanks a lot to have a fren like you ^^

( i think u'll know I'm talking bout u )

Do take care all my dearest frens here and ther and everwhere ~!

really thanks God to let me own such a good day and moment with all of u !

LUV ya' .... muacksss ^^

am i right or wrong ?

well... act today i got 2 appoinments de ~~
1 side is my fren's birthday party
the other side is to follow my aunt to penang for the last practice for my show at KL on 14th Aug de~
few time argue within my mind at last i decide to go my fren's party ...
i ignore the practice there and oso the clothes choosing session !
i feel guilty to all the dancers there too ~~
everything comes to sudden ..
i promised my fren 1st thn only i get to knw i gotta go penang .
how to reject my poor fren ar ??
although i ady made my decision and oso attended her party ~
but i oso still feel guilty !
GOD !!
help me ....

wee ~~~
gonna go to penang ltr again ^^
i passed the interview for modeling at thr ~~^^
my 1st experience neh ....
i have to slim down to make myself look slim on stage ltr ..
hahax !!
wish me luck ~^^

everything seem not under control for this month ~
at first the plan is to go for a singing comp. at Bukit Mertajam de....
but few weeks ago ... we a get a really shock news from my relatives there ~
!!! both my cousin bro n cousin sis died in an accident at highway near perak thr !!!!
izzit this too suddent ??!! OMG ! last time i meet them is just a month before the car accident !
TOO UNBELIEVABLE !

few days after the funeral ... my grandma sicked ...

and so after that my mom sick again ....

well ~ compare to that .. this sickening news is nothing ~

later on ... another news said that my previous neighbour's grandma passed away cause she fall down ~

after these few accidents ... i realise that human's life really very weak !
with this ... i think the hope to go for the singing comp. bcm low ~~!!!!

haiz.... God ! pray to wish that i can go for that ~* amitofo *

miss y'all ....
had a nice memory thr ~~

thanks God !

fell consoled when i knw there's still somebody who care my feelings and thinking ...
everytime i feel sad , moody , helpless ...
she'll be thr to share with me ~
whenever i update my blog ~ she'll be the 1st to read it and so to give me suitable motivation !
I really appreciate it a lot my fren ...
thx 4 everything n hope to be with u 4ever ..

Frens 4ever dear ^^

我彻底的输了！

我输 。。。
不是因为我败给了别人 ~
而是输给我自己！
我逃不过的。。终究是输不起！
我十八年来犯的最大错误就是--太高估我自己了！
我以为我可以很辉煌。。。很骄傲。。。很成功的过我的一生~
我没想过~真正的世界是如此的。。。
被家属的爱呵护着的我~到如今真正的看清这个世界~！
本以为一切都在我掌控中的生活~原来都还不过如此~~~
我错了！
黄凯琳！！！你不是全世界都得看你脸色过活的人。。。
在家你好吃好住~家里店里上上下下都敬你三分~
所以因为你有老爸老妈给你撑腰。。
在外面的世界。。你也只不过是个再普通不过的人！
输不起~只会给你带来更大更多的伤害 ~
从今以后~要积极的过生活！！
相信未来、相信自己、相信家人！！